Wheeler Wonders

29 years experienced.

Ancient.

At least, that is how I feel at this point in time.

In my mind, metaphorically, I have been through a Civil War, a conflict in Vietnam, and a brutal bloody battle within the muddy trenches of Europe.

In other words, mental and emotional exhaustion has absolutely consumed my entire being.

It is odd how much of a physical battle can be just as detrimental as a psychological battle within ones own mind.

Clearly, the loss of life on the battlefield is a paramount situation in real time. However, how does one equate to a mental battlefield?

Within the constant bombardment of chaos, stress, and panic, as bombs are being dropped from 5,000 feet with pinpoint precision, ordered by strategic five star Generals, there are still moments of peace.

Moments of clarity.

Moments of reflection.

Moments of rest.

The aircrafts must refuel. The troops must sleep. Ammunition must be replenished.

This is when there is, for a moment, quiet.

A time to process the defensive game plan. To question our own strategy. Is this tactic working, or do we need to try a new formation? How did we perform today? What was lost during this battle? What can we do better in order to prepare and fend off the offensive attack one more day?

These are questions we must ask ourselves in order to evolve emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

Therefore, said conundrums are not easy to contemplate, especially when one is constantly under enemy fire in the heat of battle within our own consciousness.

Fortunately, or unfortunately, these answers can only arise from experience, battles, and struggle.

One must ask and answer questions we are faced with in the midst of mental warfare.

We are our own battle.

Shall we fight, or surrender to our own destructive consciousness?

These are the questions we must answer.